Day two!~

Hey everyone!

So its the end of day two for me....been finding that the hunger pains have come....but that will stay for the next few days and then they should go away......was going to go to the gym today but I just felt like it would be a bad idea so decided against it.

I find it kinda funny the things I have noticed, friends of mine that normally always talk about the gym and being healthy etc, are the same ones trying to convince me to eat *not just food, but CRAP!*

oh well.....we will see in a few days once I weigh myself (trying to only do it every 4-5 days)

I really hope that when I do its a MUCH lower number!

Side note: I also still have huge feelings of low self worth, self hate...etc....and have a meeting with my psychologist tomorow....so that should be interesting.....not that I will divulge anything on this subject.

Dont know if I stated before, I have borderline personality dissorder, major depressive dissorder, and anxiety.....ya im a real friggen catch.

Anyways.....day two down.....38 to go....lol.

Video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DQkYcbo7M0Y&feature=plcp

Love you all. xxoo.

S

Day One! Waterfasting

Hey all....wow am I good at keeping up a blog or what?! haha.

So today is the start of my new fast. I have decided I would like to try for at least one 40 day fast if I can make it. If I encounter any signs or feelings that I am worried for my health I will stop. But this is the quickest way I know to get rid of the weight. And using my blog will help me shame myself into carrying on with this..... I will be trying to "vlog" everyday so that you can see the progress/ I can......as well as trying to post daily on here as to my progress.......

And I will be trying to only weigh myself once every few days so that I dont get weighed down with the jumping numbers....as last time I tried this, everytime that the number would bounce back up a little I would be upset with my body.....

But here we go I guess

I will be doing a water fast, no calorie intake.
              -will be taking multivitamin daily just for health.
              -only drinking water, or trying to...might have the occasional zero calorie other
                drink just so others notice less.

Here we go....today right now is the end of day one. :)

Stats: (embarassing!!!!!!!)

         I am 5'4"

         todays weight is 229.........ugh I hate myself.

link to video for today: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=36bzbux5Bi0&feature=plcp

See you tomorow.......

S