sorry readers

Sorry for my absence.....I had a bit of a hard time, was sick, one of my friends figured out my plan and I had to spend time convincing them that I was fine, and I fell off the waggon for a bit and had a binge fest....all of which left me feeling drained and more depressed than before.

however this little episode left me with a very incredible gift....my psychologist has prescribed me adderall (FINALLY!).....i am prescribed it for the symptoms of my depression not covered by my antidepressant....and oddly enough basically anyone can become prescribed it if you know what to say and what things it can be used for off normal use (add adhd) ....feel free to msg me if you need assistance. ;)

anyways. adderall is a really strong stimulant and makes you lose weight because it takes away almost your entire appetite, however after it starts to wear off for the day you can feel your hunger pains very strong for a while before bed......

i find that if i just have a small meal once a day before bed its helping....and i plan to further restrict this as i get used to the meds.

only downside is that i haven't been able to go to the gym as it can be dangerous as you start adderall....as its a stimulant it increases your resting heart rate/ blood pressure ....and extreme cardiovascular workouts could cause a stroke/ heart attack :S

gym in two days....missing the tread mill......

hope your all good

hoping i can skip food totally today :)